Piano Man

People are weird, especially me. . . so. . .
you ever find somthing that gives you this (horrible??, miserable?? or just ) bad feeling and you hear it or do it or see it, or find it one way or another but rather than turn it off, you kind of become addicted you can't let it go, you just have to hear it again,
hmm. . .
attempt 2
you ever listen to somthing once and it makes you feel one away and then do it again and it make you feel so incredibly different that had any brain or emotion machine were to be on you there would be no way to tell it was the same thing that created the effect. Well if you can't tell where this is going I did, :'P
attempt 3
you ever hear a song and it makes you feel awesome you feel just like an explosion of energy in your chest, and you laugh and you know what you really like and you realize that its not that you like all music you actually don't like almost any of it, none of it does anything for you but this one song, this one amazing sound, it makes you smile, like when you do somthing perfect, and you know it couldn't have been done better by anyone in the world, by any machine, by anything in existance, and it makes you smile, cuz you know that you did it right. :'P
and so you play the song again feeling as awesome as almost can be, and then . . . :'P
attempt 4
you ever hear the most wonderful song you've ever heard you've heard it before but not like this one time, and so you play it again, and instead of feeling even greater it's almost depressing, but you play it again, and it does it again, and you continue playing it not to feel awesome but becuase you can't get away from the feeling in the pit of your stomache, and so , you play it again, and again. ;'P
more junk
I'm not depressed, I'm not sad, I'm fine, and I'm not addicted to any songs, or any thing else short of life and Diedre, but that might just be the problem, that the song seems to be a pretty good crowed for a saturday and the manager gives me a smile cuz he knows that its me that their coming to see . . . man what are you doing here oh la diddy da la diddy da da dum, sing us song your the piano man, sing us a song tonight while were all in the mood for a melody and you've got a spirit alright, and it's over again and it's kind of sad but I'll play again and now you've heard my toght of the day and so for the char (ps I didn't mean I needed to be addicted to more I meant the song reminds me of life and a Diedre)
char
So lets see this still feels like a thought of Swaedon, except from his view it almost seems like cutting himself for fun except doing it of the mind instead of the body and that saddens me, so maybe I'll stop for now, but basically he has no care for himself, and really none for anyone else, he feels betrayed by the world, and can not understand his own drive to survive yet he does anyways he hates himself and when he started he was the only one I knew, but as he developed so did many friends and its kind of a saddening too. and I still have the rythum of the piano man and it's still rhyming in me, and so I'll stop right now and save you all grief from me
la diddy da la diddy da da dum, duh duh duh dum
so now ow ow the band kid signs off, the kid who feels like a failing romantic will leave you all alone. soo have lots of fun and the greatest of luck on all of your journeys to be, and thanks for reading this it means much to me I thank you all all,
so now the jew band kid of failed romantics will leave you todah (and mwah)