so much forgotten

ok so it's been awhile since I last posted in here
and my head has had so many different thoughts, and I haven't been able to hold on to them for anything,
I think more than anything though the most annoying of my thought, or feelings or whatever, has been somthing I've been calling bouncing like going from one extreme to another, or well maybe not neccessarily extreme,but from one side of the spectrum to the other with out any intermediate steps, and without any reason at all. For example the most common one being like when I"m all like yay and happy being like yay Diedre likes me and an instant later, for no apparent reason I like crash and am like why would she like me, and yea then it goes downhill, unless I start laughing at how I just randomly went from being uber happy to just like half depressed for no reason at all, this kind of works both ways though I can also go from sad to being really happy no reason at all.

Then the other thought I can think of is how frustrating it is when, you have thought that seems perfectly normal or not awkward or whatever else in a moment, and then later it suddenly seems so just dumb, wrong, awkward, and as you think on it makes less and less sense until well you forget what it is you were originally thinking other than it only seemed to make sense when it first came about. Does anyone else have thoughts like that

Anyways my bday was great cuz the muffins were spectacular like we went to eat at salad expresss later and I love their bread stuff there, but after eating a little bit was like, bleh, the muffins were better whats the point of eating here if they don't even have the best bread anymore. Umm. . .I think that be all for now maybe more later.