spiral

spirals are actually rather neat, like if you've ever spun a spinning top with a spiral on it. . . it's like whee you could. . . or well actually probably on me, but I could sit there and watch it for hours. Why do I bring this up, actually I haven't seen a top been spun in a long time hmm . . . I think I need to go get me one, and dreidels don't have spirals :'(
Anyhow why this actually got brought up is reading any survey in someone's blog I'ld be all secretive about it and like hint hint, but she doesn't read my blog so no fun, but anyhow, with hopefully a little less on the sidetrackedness umm. . .
on the survery there was a question is your life ascending or spiraling. and well as normal my answers can never be normal, but part of the problem is those words might be opposites but there meanings are definately not opposties like kosher and traife hehe (traif means not kosher, but the literal defintions of the two are kosher:clean; traife:torn)
ok so anyways closer to on track umm . . .
my answer is my life is definately spiraling, but not necessarily in a downward direction. And it's not really a circular spiral either it's definately an elliptical spiral, now as any one who's actually in a spiral it's very hard to tell if your going inward or outward, and yes I am throughly confused as to which I am doing (and slightly confused how to use that metaphorically). But it is definately not a regular circle or ellipse because I am getting somewhere even if it seems like its circling. So I am quite sure a spiral is a good description.
Now the question maybe why elliptical?
Well in a regular spiral the path is more or less even and no places that seem stragiht.
I definately have my almost straight sides where I get washed with where the current takes me feeling like I'm going somewhere whether I want to or not whether it's in the right direction ,the wrong one, or some random off direction. But at times, the direction disappears as suddenly I get whipped around the turn of the spiral, and hold on for dear life, with not room to spare no time for anything but getting life done, this is how the majority of your life should probably be spent truly living no time to be pessimistic or worrisome or really waste time because your stuck in movement on no straight path just trying to get around everything going on, and then, it calms down again having left me on a new path. Once again I am back on the almost straight path of my elliptical spiral right now I am nearing the end of that turn and the only reason I have time for this post is I"m stuck at work and can't do anything else.
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see that wasn't even sad, but ok umm. . . .now for my story characters info
well the book begins with Oriam killing some paladin who's sent to kill him, and if the book ever gets written and I get to a sequel in the beginning that paladin is resurrected by a demon who thoroughly confuses him by explaining what really went on, and so he decides to temproarily leave his gods, and follow the demon. He has temporarily been named Kahrenn, that probably will change.
ps if you have any good names for either him or just names you like tell me, leave a comment, email me whatever, and I'ld love to try and use it.