rambling, complaints, and who knows
Hey deeg uh deeg hmm. . .that one's weird
had I done this earlier it may have been 10 pages worth of complaints but now I've forgotten most of them. I'm weird yay. tired hmm. . .exhausted, and don't really feel like bashing people, but its thoughts that kind of will bash people on my mind, so umm. . .yea the warning of the page desc. may apply here. Not sure, hmm if Kristin were to be on again she'ld probably make me sad enough to write it all out, but now I"m all calm again, and in my normal don't want anyone to feel bad self. That was mean though blaming us for the band stuff I mean she was sick and all but we hadn't practiced since evening of ensembles and no blame on Daniel, but I mean even he had given was tired by then, John finally I think got to us all. Ok lets not place blame on him, as fun as that may be. Shovel it all on to me I don't mind, wishing that were true. That was real intelligent use band as a decoy, for what may be more of a bother. Hmm. . .I wonder what people reading this will think. should I write specific people nahh I think . . .ehh dah dah.
You know I got to the point where I have Kristin out of my mind when I don't see her, for the most part. Yet seeing her causes me guilt, and hearing her on IM makes me twinge. And just yesterday I would have said everything was fine.
Stuck between forgetting everything, and just going on probably good for me and everyone else, or holding on to memories, that won't be nice. Ok enough screwing things up for now, as Mark Twain once said better to be silent and seem like a fool then open your mouth and remove all doubt and I've already with this if not started trouble in 1000 places I've at least planted seeds for problems later. Yay me, so tired and not caring I wonder if I"ll actually post this. I don't really care I think I will though. O screw it Kristin you want to know why I never seemed happy when we were going out, and I do now because you were always miserable or sad about somthing another, and you were everything to me I couldn't be happy while you were sad, I didn't mind being sad, miserable or whatever else if I could be with you, but I guess yea that was a pointless hope and attitude. I don't know if love was a good word for it or now because it was probably closer to obsessed, and ok stopping here that should definately be enough problems by now no more are needed. Plus maybe I shouldn't be that open of a book some people don't like to read . . . hmm how would you make that metaphor work o well.
So done and where's Diedre alright night everyone smile, and don't let people get to you, after they make you feel like trash.
P.S. a lot of people have Scott's for a bf, I mean there's my cousin or 2nd cousin or is she 3rd I don't know anyhow my somthing cousing Brooke and the a SWUSY Houhew named Mor and well of course Diedre and probably whoever like the football one cause I'm sure he has a gf
had I done this earlier it may have been 10 pages worth of complaints but now I've forgotten most of them. I'm weird yay. tired hmm. . .exhausted, and don't really feel like bashing people, but its thoughts that kind of will bash people on my mind, so umm. . .yea the warning of the page desc. may apply here. Not sure, hmm if Kristin were to be on again she'ld probably make me sad enough to write it all out, but now I"m all calm again, and in my normal don't want anyone to feel bad self. That was mean though blaming us for the band stuff I mean she was sick and all but we hadn't practiced since evening of ensembles and no blame on Daniel, but I mean even he had given was tired by then, John finally I think got to us all. Ok lets not place blame on him, as fun as that may be. Shovel it all on to me I don't mind, wishing that were true. That was real intelligent use band as a decoy, for what may be more of a bother. Hmm. . .I wonder what people reading this will think. should I write specific people nahh I think . . .ehh dah dah.
You know I got to the point where I have Kristin out of my mind when I don't see her, for the most part. Yet seeing her causes me guilt, and hearing her on IM makes me twinge. And just yesterday I would have said everything was fine.
Stuck between forgetting everything, and just going on probably good for me and everyone else, or holding on to memories, that won't be nice. Ok enough screwing things up for now, as Mark Twain once said better to be silent and seem like a fool then open your mouth and remove all doubt and I've already with this if not started trouble in 1000 places I've at least planted seeds for problems later. Yay me, so tired and not caring I wonder if I"ll actually post this. I don't really care I think I will though. O screw it Kristin you want to know why I never seemed happy when we were going out, and I do now because you were always miserable or sad about somthing another, and you were everything to me I couldn't be happy while you were sad, I didn't mind being sad, miserable or whatever else if I could be with you, but I guess yea that was a pointless hope and attitude. I don't know if love was a good word for it or now because it was probably closer to obsessed, and ok stopping here that should definately be enough problems by now no more are needed. Plus maybe I shouldn't be that open of a book some people don't like to read . . . hmm how would you make that metaphor work o well.
So done and where's Diedre alright night everyone smile, and don't let people get to you, after they make you feel like trash.
P.S. a lot of people have Scott's for a bf, I mean there's my cousin or 2nd cousin or is she 3rd I don't know anyhow my somthing cousing Brooke and the a SWUSY Houhew named Mor and well of course Diedre and probably whoever like the football one cause I'm sure he has a gf
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