Spring trip
OK I won't go over the whole trip just some highlights and recent thoughts of today
the thought I thought most often was
I could. . . but I won't bother her"
it actually happenned to a few girls but about 85% of it was one person, no guys oddly I think becuase the guys I hang out with I've hung out with so long I don't worry about bothering them, but the girls I haven't been hanging out with as long.
OK 5 days was too long, but the trip was fantastic no one else seems to have liked it as much as me
and Kristin's gonna drive me insane, why can't she (about to cuss) tell me anything, ok head splitting
Saturday was absolutely spectacular
Ginny and Charlotte were the greatest friends there well compared to what I was expecting I mean Daniel, Kevin, Jason, Robert, Chris, were all friends just all right I'll stop trying to explain myself
O right before I left I heard this question or 2
"Are you nervous?" yea a little "Why?" I'm not sure
ok a better answer I will always be nervous exspecially when I care even more with the knowlege that I screwed up once and have never succeeded, and as long as uhh, budduudduh, and so I worry I'll screw up or I don't think I really screwed up it was more that lack of doing things right
As long as things can get worst I will always be nervous, but as the speech teacher told me "being nervous just means you care, if your not nervous the you don't care about the" . . . well ok she said speech but alright
Yea I hate people hating me, there have been 2 that I know of or more disliking me the 1st was this kid named Steven he wasn't open about he just said it to some girl and I overheard it, I held a grudge against him for a couple years, and I promised myself I would never hold such a pointless grudge again. Yea but him I was never a friend to and so I finally got over it, now one of my friends dislikes me, and I'm not going to go any deeper but man errgghhh
ok next
I still have no idea why Diedre likes me I would be bored of me, but o well works for me. :-)
And why in the world is Good Night. . .bad, I guess I mean I say it to everyone never realized it could be taken negatively or somthing of that sort.
*big hug to Diedre
I wish I was better at that in real life
I hate giving up friends, but I think I screwed one up to far to ever retrieve, and I don't think 2 months is enough time to heal it,
Ginny's the greatest
worries I don't think I should yell to the world since they involve more than me
OK frustrated why so few weak little things can bother me when so much is going right.
Can't wait to see Diedre tomorrow or so I hope I will
Good nigh. . .ok nm not good night everyone but since some people don't like that if you don't have a sweet dream don't have nightmares and at least have a fair night everyone,
So frustrating
the thought I thought most often was
I could. . . but I won't bother her"
it actually happenned to a few girls but about 85% of it was one person, no guys oddly I think becuase the guys I hang out with I've hung out with so long I don't worry about bothering them, but the girls I haven't been hanging out with as long.
OK 5 days was too long, but the trip was fantastic no one else seems to have liked it as much as me
and Kristin's gonna drive me insane, why can't she (about to cuss) tell me anything, ok head splitting
Saturday was absolutely spectacular
Ginny and Charlotte were the greatest friends there well compared to what I was expecting I mean Daniel, Kevin, Jason, Robert, Chris, were all friends just all right I'll stop trying to explain myself
O right before I left I heard this question or 2
"Are you nervous?" yea a little "Why?" I'm not sure
ok a better answer I will always be nervous exspecially when I care even more with the knowlege that I screwed up once and have never succeeded, and as long as uhh, budduudduh, and so I worry I'll screw up or I don't think I really screwed up it was more that lack of doing things right
As long as things can get worst I will always be nervous, but as the speech teacher told me "being nervous just means you care, if your not nervous the you don't care about the" . . . well ok she said speech but alright
Yea I hate people hating me, there have been 2 that I know of or more disliking me the 1st was this kid named Steven he wasn't open about he just said it to some girl and I overheard it, I held a grudge against him for a couple years, and I promised myself I would never hold such a pointless grudge again. Yea but him I was never a friend to and so I finally got over it, now one of my friends dislikes me, and I'm not going to go any deeper but man errgghhh
ok next
I still have no idea why Diedre likes me I would be bored of me, but o well works for me. :-)
And why in the world is Good Night. . .bad, I guess I mean I say it to everyone never realized it could be taken negatively or somthing of that sort.
*big hug to Diedre
I wish I was better at that in real life
I hate giving up friends, but I think I screwed one up to far to ever retrieve, and I don't think 2 months is enough time to heal it,
Ginny's the greatest
worries I don't think I should yell to the world since they involve more than me
OK frustrated why so few weak little things can bother me when so much is going right.
Can't wait to see Diedre tomorrow or so I hope I will
Good nigh. . .ok nm not good night everyone but since some people don't like that if you don't have a sweet dream don't have nightmares and at least have a fair night everyone,
So frustrating
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