almost junk

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That's what this blog post almost was I haven't posted here in forever, and well, I have had thougts, just none of them really stuff you want to here or stuff that stuck with me.
But this isn't junk it just almost is, cuz last night well if you read the end of my last blog post on the other one you kind of got my whole being missed thing. yea it kind of saddens me, I'm stuck between not wanting to make people sad, and not wanting to be forgotten, but what could I do even if I did decide. There was a quote that said somthing about all worrying comes form indecision, now I mean it's not a horrible argument ecspecially when you look at me and see a ton of indecision and a ton of worry it seems to line up right, except not.
Except even though I hardly ever make decisions they never worry me, it's every decision I've made that torments me. I always overanalyze everything and worry, that I did the wrong thing that somthing I did will make somthing go wrong and will be my fault. So yea, ok so that quote isn't neccessarily true, but thats not the point of this. But yea not sure how to say this, or really anything but I'm gonna miss, ok honestly not all of you, because I don't know all of you all that well, but a lot of you I really will miss I'ld start listing but I wouldn't ever finish so basically if you're reading this and you think I know you are, then you're probably on that list. I mean from Robert, to Michelle, to the other Michelle, to the other Robert, to Kristin, to Diedre (of course), to Sara to well ok yea thats why I'm not listing, but maybe hopefully I get to see a bunch of you again, but the seniors, I'm not sure you're all going away. . .ahhhh its not fair I can't do anything about it, hey if anyone for any reasons decides to head out to Georgetown you're all welcome to visit me if you call ahead I'll try and make things easy but I don't think anyone will its 4 hours and seniors who knows its 30 min north of Austin so I have no clue how far.
It's kind of ironic looking at leaving everyone and then myself, everything I consider unique about myself all my weird values, all my strange ambitions--while lacking regular ones, and they all seem almost washed away almost a lie.
I'm