Reminescing or however you spell it
Giving up although it feels miserable, really makes life easy
Hey you know long ago, actually that only goes back up until 4 months ago, I always told myself I didn't want a gf, I didn't have the time, I didn't have the personality, I wouldn't be able to deal with a break up, I would make a miserable boyfriend, I would make people miserable, any one who was dumb enough to like me I would screw up, and a whole bunch of other stuff, but I knew in reality it was all some bs excuse so I wouldn't have to deal with the fact that I was one of the only kids who had never had gf, I mean half the guys claim to have had a gf in Kindergarten I couldn't even get a real friend by then. I mean the closest thing of a friend I had by 1st grade was this kid who I looked up to he was the only kid smarter than me, yes even then I was doomed a nerd. He got to do all that special stuff that I would later learn to call GT. I was always envious, but honestly he didn't even know who I was. In fact thats one of the only memories I have from my primary school years was me sitting in line, but I had trouble crossing my legs still do, its a leg joint thing, so he told on me, first time I ever got in trouble and last time till I got old enough to have the responsibilites and abilities to forget things.
Ok so to a little closer times. those things that I feared yea I proved just about everyone of them true, not sure if I actually screwed up anyone, but I definately had my impact and I doubt a positive one, unless its somthing along the lines of one of those unseen blessings or somthing along the lines of making sure she has more caution because guys like me exist.
Hey heres some facts about the AD team
of the 3 C's 2 are graduating and both are there because of them decided to get into mischief 3 years ago
of the 3 B's 2 should be graduating and both were not at school today and may not graduate
of the 3 A's 1 is graduating, 1 is staying and the supergenius is moving to our rival
Ahh never got to finish gotta go, this all did have a sad purpose, but the answer to why I have no self confidence is in here and maybe I'll finish it. later
Hey you know long ago, actually that only goes back up until 4 months ago, I always told myself I didn't want a gf, I didn't have the time, I didn't have the personality, I wouldn't be able to deal with a break up, I would make a miserable boyfriend, I would make people miserable, any one who was dumb enough to like me I would screw up, and a whole bunch of other stuff, but I knew in reality it was all some bs excuse so I wouldn't have to deal with the fact that I was one of the only kids who had never had gf, I mean half the guys claim to have had a gf in Kindergarten I couldn't even get a real friend by then. I mean the closest thing of a friend I had by 1st grade was this kid who I looked up to he was the only kid smarter than me, yes even then I was doomed a nerd. He got to do all that special stuff that I would later learn to call GT. I was always envious, but honestly he didn't even know who I was. In fact thats one of the only memories I have from my primary school years was me sitting in line, but I had trouble crossing my legs still do, its a leg joint thing, so he told on me, first time I ever got in trouble and last time till I got old enough to have the responsibilites and abilities to forget things.
Ok so to a little closer times. those things that I feared yea I proved just about everyone of them true, not sure if I actually screwed up anyone, but I definately had my impact and I doubt a positive one, unless its somthing along the lines of one of those unseen blessings or somthing along the lines of making sure she has more caution because guys like me exist.
Hey heres some facts about the AD team
of the 3 C's 2 are graduating and both are there because of them decided to get into mischief 3 years ago
of the 3 B's 2 should be graduating and both were not at school today and may not graduate
of the 3 A's 1 is graduating, 1 is staying and the supergenius is moving to our rival
Ahh never got to finish gotta go, this all did have a sad purpose, but the answer to why I have no self confidence is in here and maybe I'll finish it. later
posted by Scott | 9:00 PM
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