3 People WHY????
Hehe so yea if you read the post below it never finished and I thought about finishing it, but the thoughts were from one of my half instantaneous half depression things, which wasn't actually to depressing, then I went to type it and was entirely in a different mood, actually it was a more annoyed mood, but just frustrated not sad. So it was kind of difficult to write on thoughts that I really wasn't feeling anymore ecspecially since I was frustrated, but that frustration is part of this blog, and the reason why well none of ya'll ever see me really frustrated, or explode.
I always for some reason seem to be trying to split my self into multiple sides not really sure why.
Ok so now to start the real post
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Ok so I'm perfect, an angel, I never get mad, I'm uber nice, always polite, very light hearted, don't take much serious, an all around good guy right, o and a new one to add, I'm too good, yea all things that have either been said thought or somthing of the sort has been mentioned. OK so yea this is person #1 the me when I'm around people, yea I'm certainly not an angel or perfect, a few people can claim to have seen me mad, and politeness has warn off, but for the point I tend to be a very lighthearted guy who can keep his cool, and I tend to not take much serious, yea I still can be embarrased that's not difficult and I tend to be shy except of well I guess it's not really recently anymore I've tried to be a bit more outgoing. I love to help people it's my most important goal is just to help someone anyone make a difference, I'm not to worried if I'm remembered I just care that everyone else is fine, I really am kind of selfless, or you could say really selfish but the thing that I want isn't money or somthing like that but to see someone happy and smiling which seems selfless, but yea when I'm with people I"m happy, smiling, and just well kind of my friendliest and most people person I can be. Which is why Chris couldn't find much of anything on me other than my awesome nav skills for the senior legend.
PERSON #1: occurs; likes ;attributes
when around people; small groups and close friends; high on life, always smiling, optimistic, full of energy, really calm.
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Person #2 hehe tons of fun this is me with my family, now this is an entirely different side of me, I don't know why I flip out when I 'm with them, but all my calmness tends to fade, and I explode according to my mom I'm always screaming which I think is an exageration I think anything above a whisper wants she's lost her cool she considers screaming so my voice picks up a bit and she yells at me for screaming and then it's all over and there's no help for it. I tend to go from loving and helping out to being a pain, I mean I still help out, and try to be good person, but it's not cause I enjoy but cuz I'm the older simbling and it follows under what I should do, I easily become overburdened and complain and whine at just about anything I become incredibly pathetic, and it's ridiculous, I'm really surprised that the whole temper thing, I mean my temper aren't violent but I do get frustrated and start yelling pretty easily wasn't even mentioned to Chris I mean he did ask Brandon, but since Brandon apparently didn't say anything, no one else would really know, that Chris would have asked. ok so
Person#2:occurs ;likes ; attributes
when with family; quiet & solitude; nonviolent but explosive temper, easily aggravated and overburdened
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Hehe so now who can guess the third me, hehe ok it's when I be alone that's the time when I worry about being forgotten that gets loaded into the blogs and that's the side that can be pessimistic, It's the one that thinks, the one that spends time at nights keeping me up, the one that comes up with all the weird stuff, the one that makes weird decions the only one that's actually decisive, the one that deals with stuff, the one that's serious, the one that worries, like this post is very much a characteristic of this third me. I tend to do a lot of day dreaming, and just think, and get lost away from everything, that matters, and think none of it does, or some one part does, usually somthing I realize I'm gonna lose, or that should or to most people seem insignifigant but I dwell on it for some reason. It's usually makes for things that I don't usually like explaining because although most of it can make sence, a lot of it makes a lot more sense when you're me. Ecspecially when it be about people, cuz well yea, I'm I won't say twisted but just a weird character, and so yea, this side of me is pretty arogant at times but still has absolutely no self confidence at others, just about anything and everything annoys, and bothers, it yet some of the most signifigant things will slide by unnoticed, and it's the side thats hardest to actually mess up, and change from it's normal umm. . .weirdness I guess, so yea now ya'll know a bit more of me, this would also be the side that spends the most time analyzing things.
Person #3 occurs; likes ; attributes
when I be alone; self, unique, random things; daydreams, analyzes, pessimistic, worried, shifts, perspectives,
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I have some like of trying to divide myself up not sure why first my characters with Oriom, Swaedon, Alexanders, and well Kelvin who could still use a new name. but ok and now I got my three who I'm with things, What's really funny about this post is I thought I had one thing on my mind but it turns out I had two and this has little to nothing to do with the last post sorry you'll just have to wait and see if I ever finish the other thought maybe I will probably some time but knowing it me it'll probably be when I think I'm going to say somthing else with a purpose and then end up doing the wrong thing I tend to do that.
ok so now for your comparisons:
PERSON : occurs; likes ;attributes
#1 around people; small groups and close friends; high on life, always smiling, optimistic, full of energy, really calm.
#2 with family; quiet & solitude; nonviolent but explosive temper, easily aggravated and overburdened
#3 alone; self, unique, random things; daydreams, analyzes, pessimistic, worried, shifts, perspectives
More fun comes when you realize the when I be with my family I usually want time alone, when I'm alone I usually either want to leave it that way which would kill the cycle or have some one there to kill my existential thoughts cuz the idea that life is nothing but random particles moving and will soon stop and have no impact on anything, not only because you're guaranteed to die but because all people, life and the universe will one day be entirely obliterated and there's nothing you can do about it, may at times be made to comfort you, but there are times when that really is nothing but sadness. And when people are around well, yea I'm usually in a pretty happy mood so don't want things to change so that also kills the cycle. O well anyways the post that this was supposed to be was a very #3 version of me, with a bunch of the values from then, and like why am I giving up all I have for a chance of somthing I could hardly care for. But the answers are obvious there must be 20 of them I do value it, and I'm not that abnormal, I follow the flow, I couldn't stay, it doesn't work, I'm optimistic, and well the list goes on. and yes optimistic would be a reason to leave.
Leave comments if you will but I don't expect much well c ya later, I love people and I have no idea why I change depending on who I'm around, or why people fascinate me so, almost everything about them from the chemical make up, and glands, and tear ducts, and eyes, to the personalities, and hopes, and ideas, and histories, and well everything. Clarification I like people's past and what made them what they are, I hate studying dates, and names, and what people did to make today, I like seeing what today and yesterday did to make people.
I always for some reason seem to be trying to split my self into multiple sides not really sure why.
Ok so now to start the real post
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Ok so I'm perfect, an angel, I never get mad, I'm uber nice, always polite, very light hearted, don't take much serious, an all around good guy right, o and a new one to add, I'm too good, yea all things that have either been said thought or somthing of the sort has been mentioned. OK so yea this is person #1 the me when I'm around people, yea I'm certainly not an angel or perfect, a few people can claim to have seen me mad, and politeness has warn off, but for the point I tend to be a very lighthearted guy who can keep his cool, and I tend to not take much serious, yea I still can be embarrased that's not difficult and I tend to be shy except of well I guess it's not really recently anymore I've tried to be a bit more outgoing. I love to help people it's my most important goal is just to help someone anyone make a difference, I'm not to worried if I'm remembered I just care that everyone else is fine, I really am kind of selfless, or you could say really selfish but the thing that I want isn't money or somthing like that but to see someone happy and smiling which seems selfless, but yea when I'm with people I"m happy, smiling, and just well kind of my friendliest and most people person I can be. Which is why Chris couldn't find much of anything on me other than my awesome nav skills for the senior legend.
PERSON #1: occurs; likes ;attributes
when around people; small groups and close friends; high on life, always smiling, optimistic, full of energy, really calm.
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Person #2 hehe tons of fun this is me with my family, now this is an entirely different side of me, I don't know why I flip out when I 'm with them, but all my calmness tends to fade, and I explode according to my mom I'm always screaming which I think is an exageration I think anything above a whisper wants she's lost her cool she considers screaming so my voice picks up a bit and she yells at me for screaming and then it's all over and there's no help for it. I tend to go from loving and helping out to being a pain, I mean I still help out, and try to be good person, but it's not cause I enjoy but cuz I'm the older simbling and it follows under what I should do, I easily become overburdened and complain and whine at just about anything I become incredibly pathetic, and it's ridiculous, I'm really surprised that the whole temper thing, I mean my temper aren't violent but I do get frustrated and start yelling pretty easily wasn't even mentioned to Chris I mean he did ask Brandon, but since Brandon apparently didn't say anything, no one else would really know, that Chris would have asked. ok so
Person#2:occurs ;likes ; attributes
when with family; quiet & solitude; nonviolent but explosive temper, easily aggravated and overburdened
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Hehe so now who can guess the third me, hehe ok it's when I be alone that's the time when I worry about being forgotten that gets loaded into the blogs and that's the side that can be pessimistic, It's the one that thinks, the one that spends time at nights keeping me up, the one that comes up with all the weird stuff, the one that makes weird decions the only one that's actually decisive, the one that deals with stuff, the one that's serious, the one that worries, like this post is very much a characteristic of this third me. I tend to do a lot of day dreaming, and just think, and get lost away from everything, that matters, and think none of it does, or some one part does, usually somthing I realize I'm gonna lose, or that should or to most people seem insignifigant but I dwell on it for some reason. It's usually makes for things that I don't usually like explaining because although most of it can make sence, a lot of it makes a lot more sense when you're me. Ecspecially when it be about people, cuz well yea, I'm I won't say twisted but just a weird character, and so yea, this side of me is pretty arogant at times but still has absolutely no self confidence at others, just about anything and everything annoys, and bothers, it yet some of the most signifigant things will slide by unnoticed, and it's the side thats hardest to actually mess up, and change from it's normal umm. . .weirdness I guess, so yea now ya'll know a bit more of me, this would also be the side that spends the most time analyzing things.
Person #3 occurs; likes ; attributes
when I be alone; self, unique, random things; daydreams, analyzes, pessimistic, worried, shifts, perspectives,
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I have some like of trying to divide myself up not sure why first my characters with Oriom, Swaedon, Alexanders, and well Kelvin who could still use a new name. but ok and now I got my three who I'm with things, What's really funny about this post is I thought I had one thing on my mind but it turns out I had two and this has little to nothing to do with the last post sorry you'll just have to wait and see if I ever finish the other thought maybe I will probably some time but knowing it me it'll probably be when I think I'm going to say somthing else with a purpose and then end up doing the wrong thing I tend to do that.
ok so now for your comparisons:
PERSON : occurs; likes ;attributes
#1 around people; small groups and close friends; high on life, always smiling, optimistic, full of energy, really calm.
#2 with family; quiet & solitude; nonviolent but explosive temper, easily aggravated and overburdened
#3 alone; self, unique, random things; daydreams, analyzes, pessimistic, worried, shifts, perspectives
More fun comes when you realize the when I be with my family I usually want time alone, when I'm alone I usually either want to leave it that way which would kill the cycle or have some one there to kill my existential thoughts cuz the idea that life is nothing but random particles moving and will soon stop and have no impact on anything, not only because you're guaranteed to die but because all people, life and the universe will one day be entirely obliterated and there's nothing you can do about it, may at times be made to comfort you, but there are times when that really is nothing but sadness. And when people are around well, yea I'm usually in a pretty happy mood so don't want things to change so that also kills the cycle. O well anyways the post that this was supposed to be was a very #3 version of me, with a bunch of the values from then, and like why am I giving up all I have for a chance of somthing I could hardly care for. But the answers are obvious there must be 20 of them I do value it, and I'm not that abnormal, I follow the flow, I couldn't stay, it doesn't work, I'm optimistic, and well the list goes on. and yes optimistic would be a reason to leave.
Leave comments if you will but I don't expect much well c ya later, I love people and I have no idea why I change depending on who I'm around, or why people fascinate me so, almost everything about them from the chemical make up, and glands, and tear ducts, and eyes, to the personalities, and hopes, and ideas, and histories, and well everything. Clarification I like people's past and what made them what they are, I hate studying dates, and names, and what people did to make today, I like seeing what today and yesterday did to make people.
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