cut

ahhh F#@$@ it
this was gonna be for the other blog but half an hour ago I got a massive head ache, and my head is crawling with mumble jumble thoughts and everything else.
So today is cut because my jazz band director is well a genius.
He really is he can while playing point a mistake in every part at the same time. but while standing behind me ahhh frustrating
ok so here's what happenned he came up and stood behind me and was like I don't want you to play this line. So I sat there and didn't play it he's still over my shoulder, now either I got a measure off and he didn't notice or. . . I played with out buzzing, but he swore I played and was like I just told you not to play it, and got on to me then later cut me out of another measure and was like it sounds like your sight reading. which it was warm and it was putting me to sleep kind of comfy warm but making me really inattentive and so I sucked more than normal
then mom called in jazz band not cool he didn't notice.
called her back and suddenly got really agitated and all hot headed which is really uncharacteristic of me, although sometimes I do with her, but I've been good about that.
So then I felt bad and got up to my room and exploding exponentially growing head ache that now has somewhat subsidded, I've randomly nearly been in tears for no reason, like the start of a song I don't recognize. My headache is fading back in like the tide now
huh
Ok so on a lighter note my new buddy Amanda umm.. . actually gave me an explanation why she wasn't gonna sit with at dinner today, which I found hilarious cuz no one ever explains not sitting next to me before I mean usually it's a I'm gonna walk past you and pretend you don't exist as I sit next to the guy behind you and refuse to acknowledge your existance.
So ok there's been a ton of stuff that happenned a ticket among the list I missed my advisor meeting and can't sign up for classes and now she's in Houston. and gets back tomorrow so I get last choice of classes, even freshman get reserved spots.
So I got my self in another wonderful hole.
ok well I gotta go
so my characters have not yet felt like this