Ok so I call my gf and I haven't been outside in forever in fact the last time I think I was outside was when she came over and its been awhile well not that long cuz I haven't been going out that long. So I go outside and talk on the phone, incredibly weird for me, I never go outside and hang in back yard, and I never talk on the phone (I might have a post about that later). Ok so I go back inside and start doing the laundry cuz my mom's gone and I figured I'ld be nice. . .(o how sweet) alright well after awhile, of waiting forever I call her back even rarer for me not sure which is happens more me going outside cuz its nice out or me calling someone just because I want to talk on the phone, whoa crazy, anyways that lasts for awhile and then, well I go outside again and this is the real beginning of my post, so haha you all read that for no reason at all, hehe I'm laughing at you.
OK so I"m outside and I see the weeds and since I'm just being weird for myself, normal probably by everyone else's standards I start to weed vegie garden, which no longer should have that name. At this point it looks more like a green ocean it literally has waves of weeds. The top probably is a foot and half maybe two feet high. It's probably a 4 foot by 4 foot square garden. It's entirely over run by weeds, because it probably hasn't been weeded in 2 years or so. So as I'm weeding I begin to think. . .
Hmm. . .its Shabbat isn't it. *Look at my watch* yep. That means I shouldn't be doing this, should I. Well if I weeded more often, I would stop or if I actually kept Sabbath every once in awhile I would, but no I don't do either. So I continued thinking. . . well according to my rabbi (the greatest religious dude anywhere ever for reasons that take to long to say) Shabbat is basically supposed to be holy or kedosh (koof daled shin) anyways basically in the end he said it just had to be different like always lighting candles or it could be entirely outside of religion and just be a pizza night every Friday as long as it was different from the rest of the week. So I was like well this is very different I'm with nature on Shabbat yes (one point for me) well technically I would have to weed every Shabbat,hehe not happening (minus one point for me o :-( back to 0).
Alright so then I went on and to well right now I'm weeding on Shabbat which means I"m killing plants for Shabbat thats probably some major sin, all pro-life and I'm off killing on some high holy day (minus one point for me, uh oh I'm in the negatives), but its all in good intentions, because I'm only doing it to make room for more life to grow in (plus one point, yes!!! back to 0, wait thats still pretty pathetic). So basically I'm saying the life of a thorny weed is less valuabe than the life of somthing with flowers, so beauty, no not even that one because its a food garden and two because well, it will probably grow weeds back so basically, a pretty weed or a useful plant has more right to live than a sticker plant. Wait but any relgious dude in an instant would tell you, well you can't say one life is more valuable than another, thats god's decision, but all life is equal then why is running over a person a horrible crime yet running over a squirrel is miniscule, or what about a fly, or a Venus fly trap, or mushroom, or a bacteria, there all lives, that we definately have prioritized there order of life I don't know many people who would sacrifice themselves for a squirrel, or tell you that the fly you just smashed, has as much right to live as they do. Or yell at you for taking antibiotics cuz you just killed a billion bacteria, to save one person. Ok, so you wonder or maybe you don't am I saying some people have more of a right to live than others or that antibiotics are bad cuz your killing a billion instead of losing one life. No not at all, I'm more saying, well I'm not entirely sure, but if I have to say somthing umm. . .all those people who tell people no life is more valuable than another, and yet kill mosquitoes, are technically hypocrites. Hehe religion bashing is fun unfortunatley I'm probably one of the more religious people I know well outside of USY they all cheat and beat me. OK so basically I guess my rule of value of life, is a pyramid like thing of self protection, first yourself, I know its selfish but stick with it, then those closest to you, and you just go outward, so eventually those things that are bacteria, and then rocks get the least amount of protection from me, yes I know rocks don't live, but my point is it goes outward and bacteria being alive is closer to me than a rock.
Now I don't strictly adhere to this in fact I don't even try to, but I think it makes the most sense, and seems very similiar to what I do, except sometimes, I probably screw up the self first thing, cuz I have such a low self esteem at times, but others times it all seems good as of late I think I"ve been feeling pretty good so yay ok so how did I get here. O yea just read above, ok so umm. . . hehe more of my arguments with myself I still came out with 0 points ha not good or bad just a neutral person, from the optimistic point of view so sad I was hoping to be good, but then again I could have turned out to be some evil monster, lol. OK well now the weird jew guy, with some pretty sacreligious views will be signing off. I think wait hmm. . . actually I'll say hi to a bunch of people like Chelle, and Michelle, and Diedre, and Kristin, and ooo Sara oo and the other Sara, and Rachel, and Jodi, and Robert, and ooo the other Robert, and Chris, and no not the other Chris, oo and Brian to , but not the other Brian no offense to the sax players, hey wait both Brian's play sax o well, and um ooo hello Char to, and and and Hadar as well hello, oo and Margalit, and Steven and Laureen, and Kevin, might as well say hi to Jason I already said hi to his sister oo and the other Jason and Mr. Mac, and Mr. Munoz, Rabbi Federow, and well ok a bunch of other people hello and have an awesome day, weekend, year, decade, life ooo fun. OK yea I know most of those people don't even read my other blog much less this one, but o well.
