English Final

Ok thats really frustrating I posted 2 days ago and it entirely erased it that sucks. but anyways about all I remember of it was hey this is a bunch of random stuff, and then somewhere later teehee I made Diedre feel fat.
OK so now 2 days ago was my english final and I ended up writing a 4 page story since I exempted while everyone else wrote their essays for the final. Now things to remember I was bored out of mind, had an hour and a half, had previously attempted sleeping and given up (even with that awesome pillow), finished with at least 20 min left, I had just recently seen Hitch Hikers Guide to the Galaxy, and just read The Hot Zone, between the movie and the book and me you get pretty close to what I wrote. Alright so here goes with the errors I'll have parenthisis to add in or correct things that were wrong or for clarity:
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Scott Manusov
5/24/2005 Tuesday lol (written slanted)

Senior English Final

Once upon a time there was a bored kid who exempted his final, so he decided to right (write) a story & so here it goes.
In a distant land, in a distant place, where Physics was not quite the same, and the higher powers were more apparent, where humans still believed they ruled supreme, still thought they were superior, but here they knew they were threatened and not alone in their claim, there were centars (centaurs), and dragons, uniconrs, & faeries that each had (each with) their own societies, their own morales, their own ways in which they thought that when you really got down to it they were (truly) the most important & powerful beings for one reason, trick, or even a dark side tehy thought hidden from the rest of the world.
( )This story starts way after the befinning, but then again the befinning starts when their gods arranged the universe(,) each throwing their own piece their own hopes & desires into a single pile until it was to much, & it exploded, most went where it was meant to, but some stuff ruined others, in the midest of this massive explosion pieces began to form togetther& soon the work of these gods became more apparent. Bright lights began forming &these started sucking in everything around them until more light appeared spinning around them & these lights had rocks spinning around them, some of the gods got frustrated that someone else's looked better ot theirs was wrong or one god's input had ruined their vision, some even had their stuff devastated by another gods input. So the piles started forming & some of these spinning rocks began to hold gasses, & well tiny insignifigant pieces of the god's material began to form somthing that resembled a machine they were only made by chance or well well the god's preplanned randomness where all was really prepared ahead of time. These machines changed the air & as it changed so did the machines until these machines started working together & eventually theses machine(s) were called cells & from here what we call life began on these planets, but there was a problem 2 of the gods had planned stuff there, but this one (planet) was 2nd and blew away the other God's pretty art piece & he was infuriated, but they agreed to share the area.
Now back to the story much much later, there were elves, & dragons, dwarves, goblins, people, gnomes, flies, cats, mice, elephants, faeries, fish, & merfolk, that all wandered the planet. Each with it's own mind. Some were in civilizations others were just off on their own with a mind less worried about the aspects of empires, but only centered on surviving this life. There were some that didn't even worry about that, but none of them still walked this planet. In one of the human cities, one that had outlawes slaves recently & a generation previous, had outlawed (the cruelties of keeping) pets, but both still pseudo existed(,) many different species would share homes & the master was not as clear (as before but. . . ) but similiar to the slaves they now could leave when they wanted, but for pay or other reasons (they) still found very strong arguement to stay.
In this city there was a boy who was quite frustrated for several immature, young boy like reasons, his tutor was pushing him to hard, his parents wouldn't listen, his girlfriend broke up with him , his friends had no time, his cat & dog both quit and then vanished so he was quite upset. He also decided it wsa time to run off it was a common occurence in these dys & so he did(,) his parent worried, but knew they had taught him enough to survive & he would soon come back.
Oh, I believe I forgot to tell you how these Physics were different, see all the old laws still applied because they shared one god w/ us, but the other well, was not one who valued cooperation & team work he didn't believe it was right that some could slide on others backs & that some lost just for having the wrong friends as you can see this god himself was a bit (independent) of a loner. So instead of having several laws based on links & force, he based his off of self will & concentration, the mind which was hard to combine as opposed to the arm (and it's might,) which was easily added and so his Physics were (was) called magic.
This boy ran off and soon felt the cold chill wind pick up. He quickly began to realize he had no where to go and this was foolish, but he wasn't going to give in this easily his parents wouldn't even punish him, they'ld be to busy laughing, he decided to push on & a few hours later he had gone entirely numb. Suddenly he looked up and stopped he was surrounded by men who were 9 & 10 feet tall then he realized they were on horses, they had found him . . . wait no they were centaurs. Centaurs why were they here they never came out, this was a rare site (sight), but probably a fatal one he wanted to cry. Suddenly a deep loud voice shouted
"Az rak lelfin eekran"
He turned around to see a black horse with a well tanned man even more so than the other centaursand he stutterred
"wha. . . Wh. . . I . . . I don't. . . .I"
Then the voice filling up the open space said
"Ah, so you are not familiar with thte language of passing -- Why are you here?"
"I . . . I ran . . . to. . . to be alone"
The voice laughed a deeo laugh and said
"you are as alone as you will ever wiil be in this forest no one else is here,"
the child still sheverring whispered
"but . . . but you are" pointing at the centaur who spoke,
"but we hardly count, we do not have or take privacy and so you are your own"
The child slowly walked as faar from them as he could, and then collapsed against a t ree, he was exhauseted and tired, and scared to death he felt sick to his stomache & then puked all over the tree feeling a bit better he fell into an exhausted sleep. The sun had resen and suddenly hooves pounded next to his head he woke with a start thinking his head would be crushed. Masculine arms covered in hair scooped him up & hwls him EOUNS RHW Qiar hw lookw sup & realized he was flying through the forest the centaur was galoping & every time it landed he flet his waist smash down & felt like he would puke if there had been anything left in him.
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Hehe now who was it who said you couldn't have religion and science hehe I did all that and then added magic, and I never actually got past the intro of the story it's just beginning hehe so much fun

ok so now the relgious scientist is signing off lol

Hey it's me abunch of random or not so random stuff.
Let's see people are saying their gonna miss me thanks that really does mean a lot to me even if I don't say or do much. Umm. . .I have a bother list if you want to be on it please ask mwhahah it's growing and thanks to all of those who joined hehe. for those who don't know what it is you can guess or ask or just find me
Ohh the school year's almost over and it's almost got me killed after Sunday everything calms down until then everything is doing it's best to double book every second of my life, might be fun, might be a nightmare.
hmmm . . .diedre. . .I wonder why she wondered why that was my thought of the post, Cuz well the comment probably meant a lot more to me than it should have, but I don't seem to care.
Umm My English final hehe fun I exempted it but still in my boredom wrote 4 pages of junk now before any of ya'll read it you should all know it was written in an hour and after getting bored of attempting to sleep, I have also just recently seen Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy and just read Hot Zone when you combine all that with me it's not to far from what I wrote.
And who was it that laughed at the idea of a religious scientist I plan to be one hehe more fun, but more fun than that is what I wrote which mixes religion science and magic into one. It even has the creation of the universe in it which uses a funny alteration of the big band it's fun and polytheistic which is all the more fun since pretty much no one anymore is polytheistic and then I had more fun as I decided one of the gods in it was also our god at least as far as the books concerened so I had fun with it. I spent pretty much the whole thing on the intro and never actually got to the story.
Umm. . .yea about to die from pressure of USY and CAMP YOUNG JUDEA application, then add to that a billion hours on my new job already I work to 11:30 like every night which means I probably work later than that, cuz that means till closing.

3 People WHY????

Hehe so yea if you read the post below it never finished and I thought about finishing it, but the thoughts were from one of my half instantaneous half depression things, which wasn't actually to depressing, then I went to type it and was entirely in a different mood, actually it was a more annoyed mood, but just frustrated not sad. So it was kind of difficult to write on thoughts that I really wasn't feeling anymore ecspecially since I was frustrated, but that frustration is part of this blog, and the reason why well none of ya'll ever see me really frustrated, or explode.
I always for some reason seem to be trying to split my self into multiple sides not really sure why.
Ok so now to start the real post
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Ok so I'm perfect, an angel, I never get mad, I'm uber nice, always polite, very light hearted, don't take much serious, an all around good guy right, o and a new one to add, I'm too good, yea all things that have either been said thought or somthing of the sort has been mentioned. OK so yea this is person #1 the me when I'm around people, yea I'm certainly not an angel or perfect, a few people can claim to have seen me mad, and politeness has warn off, but for the point I tend to be a very lighthearted guy who can keep his cool, and I tend to not take much serious, yea I still can be embarrased that's not difficult and I tend to be shy except of well I guess it's not really recently anymore I've tried to be a bit more outgoing. I love to help people it's my most important goal is just to help someone anyone make a difference, I'm not to worried if I'm remembered I just care that everyone else is fine, I really am kind of selfless, or you could say really selfish but the thing that I want isn't money or somthing like that but to see someone happy and smiling which seems selfless, but yea when I'm with people I"m happy, smiling, and just well kind of my friendliest and most people person I can be. Which is why Chris couldn't find much of anything on me other than my awesome nav skills for the senior legend.
PERSON #1: occurs; likes ;attributes
when around people; small groups and close friends; high on life, always smiling, optimistic, full of energy, really calm.
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Person #2 hehe tons of fun this is me with my family, now this is an entirely different side of me, I don't know why I flip out when I 'm with them, but all my calmness tends to fade, and I explode according to my mom I'm always screaming which I think is an exageration I think anything above a whisper wants she's lost her cool she considers screaming so my voice picks up a bit and she yells at me for screaming and then it's all over and there's no help for it. I tend to go from loving and helping out to being a pain, I mean I still help out, and try to be good person, but it's not cause I enjoy but cuz I'm the older simbling and it follows under what I should do, I easily become overburdened and complain and whine at just about anything I become incredibly pathetic, and it's ridiculous, I'm really surprised that the whole temper thing, I mean my temper aren't violent but I do get frustrated and start yelling pretty easily wasn't even mentioned to Chris I mean he did ask Brandon, but since Brandon apparently didn't say anything, no one else would really know, that Chris would have asked. ok so
Person#2:occurs ;likes ; attributes
when with family; quiet & solitude; nonviolent but explosive temper, easily aggravated and overburdened
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Hehe so now who can guess the third me, hehe ok it's when I be alone that's the time when I worry about being forgotten that gets loaded into the blogs and that's the side that can be pessimistic, It's the one that thinks, the one that spends time at nights keeping me up, the one that comes up with all the weird stuff, the one that makes weird decions the only one that's actually decisive, the one that deals with stuff, the one that's serious, the one that worries, like this post is very much a characteristic of this third me. I tend to do a lot of day dreaming, and just think, and get lost away from everything, that matters, and think none of it does, or some one part does, usually somthing I realize I'm gonna lose, or that should or to most people seem insignifigant but I dwell on it for some reason. It's usually makes for things that I don't usually like explaining because although most of it can make sence, a lot of it makes a lot more sense when you're me. Ecspecially when it be about people, cuz well yea, I'm I won't say twisted but just a weird character, and so yea, this side of me is pretty arogant at times but still has absolutely no self confidence at others, just about anything and everything annoys, and bothers, it yet some of the most signifigant things will slide by unnoticed, and it's the side thats hardest to actually mess up, and change from it's normal umm. . .weirdness I guess, so yea now ya'll know a bit more of me, this would also be the side that spends the most time analyzing things.
Person #3 occurs; likes ; attributes
when I be alone; self, unique, random things; daydreams, analyzes, pessimistic, worried, shifts, perspectives,
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I have some like of trying to divide myself up not sure why first my characters with Oriom, Swaedon, Alexanders, and well Kelvin who could still use a new name. but ok and now I got my three who I'm with things, What's really funny about this post is I thought I had one thing on my mind but it turns out I had two and this has little to nothing to do with the last post sorry you'll just have to wait and see if I ever finish the other thought maybe I will probably some time but knowing it me it'll probably be when I think I'm going to say somthing else with a purpose and then end up doing the wrong thing I tend to do that.
ok so now for your comparisons:

PERSON : occurs; likes ;attributes
#1 around people; small groups and close friends; high on life, always smiling, optimistic, full of energy, really calm.
#2 with family; quiet & solitude; nonviolent but explosive temper, easily aggravated and overburdened
#3 alone; self, unique, random things; daydreams, analyzes, pessimistic, worried, shifts, perspectives
More fun comes when you realize the when I be with my family I usually want time alone, when I'm alone I usually either want to leave it that way which would kill the cycle or have some one there to kill my existential thoughts cuz the idea that life is nothing but random particles moving and will soon stop and have no impact on anything, not only because you're guaranteed to die but because all people, life and the universe will one day be entirely obliterated and there's nothing you can do about it, may at times be made to comfort you, but there are times when that really is nothing but sadness. And when people are around well, yea I'm usually in a pretty happy mood so don't want things to change so that also kills the cycle. O well anyways the post that this was supposed to be was a very #3 version of me, with a bunch of the values from then, and like why am I giving up all I have for a chance of somthing I could hardly care for. But the answers are obvious there must be 20 of them I do value it, and I'm not that abnormal, I follow the flow, I couldn't stay, it doesn't work, I'm optimistic, and well the list goes on. and yes optimistic would be a reason to leave.
Leave comments if you will but I don't expect much well c ya later, I love people and I have no idea why I change depending on who I'm around, or why people fascinate me so, almost everything about them from the chemical make up, and glands, and tear ducts, and eyes, to the personalities, and hopes, and ideas, and histories, and well everything. Clarification I like people's past and what made them what they are, I hate studying dates, and names, and what people did to make today, I like seeing what today and yesterday did to make people.

almost junk

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That's what this blog post almost was I haven't posted here in forever, and well, I have had thougts, just none of them really stuff you want to here or stuff that stuck with me.
But this isn't junk it just almost is, cuz last night well if you read the end of my last blog post on the other one you kind of got my whole being missed thing. yea it kind of saddens me, I'm stuck between not wanting to make people sad, and not wanting to be forgotten, but what could I do even if I did decide. There was a quote that said somthing about all worrying comes form indecision, now I mean it's not a horrible argument ecspecially when you look at me and see a ton of indecision and a ton of worry it seems to line up right, except not.
Except even though I hardly ever make decisions they never worry me, it's every decision I've made that torments me. I always overanalyze everything and worry, that I did the wrong thing that somthing I did will make somthing go wrong and will be my fault. So yea, ok so that quote isn't neccessarily true, but thats not the point of this. But yea not sure how to say this, or really anything but I'm gonna miss, ok honestly not all of you, because I don't know all of you all that well, but a lot of you I really will miss I'ld start listing but I wouldn't ever finish so basically if you're reading this and you think I know you are, then you're probably on that list. I mean from Robert, to Michelle, to the other Michelle, to the other Robert, to Kristin, to Diedre (of course), to Sara to well ok yea thats why I'm not listing, but maybe hopefully I get to see a bunch of you again, but the seniors, I'm not sure you're all going away. . .ahhhh its not fair I can't do anything about it, hey if anyone for any reasons decides to head out to Georgetown you're all welcome to visit me if you call ahead I'll try and make things easy but I don't think anyone will its 4 hours and seniors who knows its 30 min north of Austin so I have no clue how far.
It's kind of ironic looking at leaving everyone and then myself, everything I consider unique about myself all my weird values, all my strange ambitions--while lacking regular ones, and they all seem almost washed away almost a lie.
I'm

so much forgotten

ok so it's been awhile since I last posted in here
and my head has had so many different thoughts, and I haven't been able to hold on to them for anything,
I think more than anything though the most annoying of my thought, or feelings or whatever, has been somthing I've been calling bouncing like going from one extreme to another, or well maybe not neccessarily extreme,but from one side of the spectrum to the other with out any intermediate steps, and without any reason at all. For example the most common one being like when I"m all like yay and happy being like yay Diedre likes me and an instant later, for no apparent reason I like crash and am like why would she like me, and yea then it goes downhill, unless I start laughing at how I just randomly went from being uber happy to just like half depressed for no reason at all, this kind of works both ways though I can also go from sad to being really happy no reason at all.

Then the other thought I can think of is how frustrating it is when, you have thought that seems perfectly normal or not awkward or whatever else in a moment, and then later it suddenly seems so just dumb, wrong, awkward, and as you think on it makes less and less sense until well you forget what it is you were originally thinking other than it only seemed to make sense when it first came about. Does anyone else have thoughts like that

Anyways my bday was great cuz the muffins were spectacular like we went to eat at salad expresss later and I love their bread stuff there, but after eating a little bit was like, bleh, the muffins were better whats the point of eating here if they don't even have the best bread anymore. Umm. . .I think that be all for now maybe more later.

short

yea this will be short umm. . .today was pretty uneventful pretty much sat stalled thought, watch avatar the last air bender wow that show was pretty dumb I laughed till tears welled up in my eyes, someof it was alright but it was definately designed for a younger age group then again 17,18 year olds prob aren't meant to watch toons.
Then yea pushed everything off forever left some comments I might later regret they said nothing but got me to say things, sorry Daniel and Ginny, but o well.
ok so
Quote of the Day: it was your choice
Thought of the Day: Things seem so well and yet I'm so easily thrown by the smallest of details
Smile of the Day: I can't really say what it was I just had this random smile, and heard Diedre in me head I must be crazy hearing voices as well arguing with myself jeeze
Hebrew word of the day: blood: dom pronounced umm. . . like cd rom but instead of rom it's dom, its the first of the ten plagues.
good note: as difficult as some people make life other people make life so easy, and sometimes the people who make things difficult are really just making things easier your just looking at it from the wrong angle

hehe mwhahah and woo dizziness not really

hehe fun title too bad not much of it actually has a purpose.
ok so right now I'm feeling pretty good that will change as of Tuesday 8:07 give or take a couple sec maybe min lol when I start taking that Calc test and suddenly decide not only is Charley wrong about an easy 4 on it but also that I really do not want to take 5 AP tests these next two weeks. OOO and Tuesday is I don't remember so sad, but I did know most of them if not al of them at one point well Wednesday is really Odin's day which is sometimes Woden's day and from there it some how goes to Wednesday, and then there's Thor's day or Thursday Freyja's day goddess of winter and whatnot, and thats obviously Friday, ok yea the weekends are religiously named not Norse named, o and John Thur of Fri was trying to convince me that a theocracy could be better than a secualr society, he was like well secular societies can still persecute like Hitler, yea but name me one theocracy that didn't persecute I mean the object of a theocracy is that their following their religion so other religions usually aren't welcome, unless your religion happens to be aetheist or hindu, or somthing like that, yea those are really different and not always aetheist depending on whose talking may or may not be a religion but thats half the point unless you choose one thats not a religion or as I far as i know of hindu (very little) one that is more of a just worship and we don't care type idea which is still a little anti aetheist, your going to have persecution o fun topic umm hope I"m not trampling over anyone, if I am I'm sorry and if I have incorrect stuff on here or somthing you'ld like to say or argue go for it. Umm but since I be on religion just a stray comment as I fly to criticize my own religion mwhahaha, actually not my sect jsut all the other ones lol, well reforms safe. Ok messianic jews don't really count as jews there lead by a guy who used to be Christian minister (atleast around here) and they have some of the highest jewish conv. rates of anybody, they spent a million dollars a city I think in 13 cities to convert jewish people, if there jews why do they need to, anyhow other than that the big thing is if you believe Jesus is the messiah and the son of god then well your not jewish cuz part of the religion is like he didn't come yet and no one can die for someone else's sin so it be a bit contradictory, now for the fun part making fun of my actual religion. Ok the orthodox some of you are cheap, ok this bothers me, On Shabbat theres no work allowed no turning on lights starting fires,turning on or changing channels of tv, comp, etc. well the orthodox who make very sure to follow the rules, hire people (by the way no handling money either) to sit around there house and since they can't tell them to turn on the lights will be like hmm. . .its dark in here and the guy will just happen to decide to turn on the lights, or put the tv on this channel, or this or that, and thats just cheating with loop wholes and defeats the whole purpose of whatever your doing, and if you read my blog you saw the Scottish rules, yea that is my point of you don't really have to do exactly whats said type idea as long as your making a difference in what you normally do and know why your doing what and feel good about theres no point of doing somthing if your gonna make loop wholes. Then after this the orthodox (as a whole not necessarily each ind) don't even consider any of the other sects jewish cuz they don't do all the stuff like seperate men from women during services, but it's like pshhh ya'll don't even follow the most basic and fundamental holiday without cheating yet were not jews cuz we put men next to the the children and women, up sorry we just can't keep our hands off each other were such a distraction uhh its ridiculous, ok anyways then theres the modern orthodox I like them there kind of between me and orthodox, and they atleast consider us jewish and there a little closer to date I'm conservative, although according to this one online test thing I took I got 100% reform which is kind of just like yea were jewish and we celebrate the holidays but thats about it, so its a pretty laid back stance i'm ok with it. Ok ummm other stuff I had my fun, lets see Diedre's barbeque or actually Shelley's bbq was fun, except Diedre had cold :-( , and her dad be awesome, I laugh though, cuz he was like he'ld rather us not go in a minivan with someone else's parents cuz he doesn't want us to get stuck and have to do whatever they do or wait on them, I actually had thought if anything he'ld as a parent be like you can only go with a parent and a group of kids like that cuz people always seemed worried somthing will happen like at project prom last year they took your keys till the end of it and this year I dno't even think there letting people drive there I think you have to take a bus or somthing. It was funny I told my mom and she was like o that's nice and then somthing about strange, but nice, and I was just laughing that she was calling them strange. O and thinking of my mom on a sad note ok well 1st my mom works at targets and does umm. . .stocking and what not well she has to break down the boxes, and when she does, she uses a knife, well back to the sad note, Thur or somthing I saw this huge red stain on the bottom of her hand and I was like mom whats that hoping it was tomatoe stuff or somthing but kind of knowing otherwise cuz she had kind of cut herself up a bunch the little time she's worked there, anyways she was like what, forever so I started being like o well if she doesn't even know she's got that it couldn't be blood cuz you notice when you bleed a whole lot all over your hand and she was like o that and as she turned her hand more her finger had red all over it too, and she was like o yea I cut myself my brother (like her dad) chewed her out and was like mom you have to learn to use a knife. Dismorning she needed me to help replace the bandage on her thumb and there was this deep like cut in the top I don't even know how you'ld do and she even has like cuts on her elbow and you just kind of wonder how she beats herself up so much, I mean its like me and pens. except they don't hurt me they just turn me funny colors. O and hehe my list of people if the world were randomly erased of people and civ then had to be rebuilt, sadly doesn't have any females in it not that I don't like any of yall but I do, but like I have a guy in cuz he's built like a rock and has crazy determination/stubborness and so he'ld just be useful, and then theres, a guy who's good at like everything even though I doubt he thinks so, and then maybe another dude for morals and religion, but the question is do you really want religion that early on, meh only if everything else is covered so he's the last on the list if I can cover everything else and then maybe one more guy who can do a lot of work and also has an incredible strength of will he's a bit smaller, but it don't really seem to matter that much.
Ok I had just thought of the list now cuz I was talking to a friend who was on it and thought about mentioning it and was like no I'm crazy and weird enough with out it.
Alright so now. . .umm I think I've ranted and had enough fun so now I need to write more papers and stud y more. .

Now for the . . . guy who looks up to people who look up to him (lol) signing off
PS your all awesome,
everyone seems to hate Friendswood who lives here, except me, and probably because what I consider Friendswood is just ya'll, and as Debbie would say you rock my socks off so see yall later your all spectacular.